a sense of looking forward

its been more than i can handle
but less than what i'm used to
as the days pass by, i get lost in those eyes
just when i forgot what it was to feel so real
and when you smile its like heaven's all around me
and every moment without you is spent thinking about you
all i really want to do is leave the past all behind
because i'm loving the present and looking forward to the future
for the first time in a long time the weight is coming off of my shoulders
its that moment of panic when i see you
oh how i'm so lucky just to be acknowledged by you
my stomach turns around and my heart begins to quicken
i cant speak my words because they are so tightly wrapped around you
i lose all sense of direction when you are lying in my arms
the smiles dont stop coming as you make your cute faces
i cant stand it when we're in two different places
because i still feel your hand on my neck
and your chest against mine
your soft breathing on my shoulder makes me want to stop time
and linger here forever
you've pulled me out of the shallows
and into the deep end
please believe me when i say i'm gonna break those old habits
i've been searching for you
and you've been waiting for me
i'm so sorry i was so ignorant from the beginning
but now we're here and i can finally say that i'm happy
yea i can finally say that i'm happy

trp

it never fails
when i finally have a new grip on this
it slips through these trembling fingertips
but i wont let my life write its own ending
because nothing ever ends that easily
i've been living in a hoax
staring outside this window
the glass mimics prison bars
as the green grass on the other side
beckons me closer and closer all the time
i'll just keep hoping for better
i set my own trap this time, and fell into as expected
i might as well have run head first into stalled traffic
i had so many opportunities to turn back
every time i see her face it feels so much better
but the glass still mimics prison bars
and i'll wait here patiently on the edge of my seat
because i can't resist a safe thrill
she's the only one that fills my eyes
with hope for the better,

another sleepless night rolls into my room
the walls radiate my mistakes in such a way
it makes imagery jealous
clutching my pillow for dear life
i need the sun to break and show some sign of life
the dark consumes my thoughts
i only wish for some dignity
like long lost fathers begging for sympathy
every time i see her face it feels so much better
but the glass still mimics prison bars
and i'll wait here patiently on the edge of my seat
because i can't resist a safe thrill
she's the only one that fills my eyes
with hope for the better

lights of rushing minds

in spite of all the times that i decided that i couldnt carry on
tonight we will erase the memories
and i'm sorry that i must forget
so sorry that this regret will eat us from the inside out
but i'll stay in this moment for longer than i should anyway
because it's the one time i've felt this alive
and even if the sun never rises
at least the darkness embraced us so tight
cuz i've been running this life alone for so long
that home is nowhere near where it used to be

but lying in each others arms will substitute well enough for now
these street lights burn brighter in my eyes
as i count the moments that i am beside her

my mind is rushing in and out of reality
as i fight back everyone's scrutiny
what price must be payed to be happy?
i fear that no one will ever open the door this wide for me again
and i'll be cast into darkness once more
but without her this time i think i'll hold my breath
until this devastation breaks into the daylight
i think i may have jumped the gun just this one last time
baby if you stay right here i'm sure that we'll survive
i've been breathing in these words
and i've been sulking in myself
you've turned everything around
but now we must forget