my sky exploded

insecurity takes over my senses
tip this heart upside down making sure u get the best out of it
you've got me running in a selfish circle
and now its getting harder to believe
that this is what is best for me

so burn these eyes until i'm blind
because the other side can't be THAT much more beautiful
its almost impossible to move
when u carry every word ever said on your back
rip out my foundation
and watch me crumble, as church bells ring
this isn't me, i dont know why its so hard to believe

and these lungs they fill
with these unspoken words
and i just wish i could fix everything
but then i wish i could just forget

i cant do this on my own
you've blocked me out
and yet you stand there and beg
and beg to know whats wrong
this isnt something anyone wants
this isnt something anyone wants
but you asked for it so here it is

this life's on hold and i wont pick up the phone

....at last this all comes to a screeching hault

i guess it just takes time
to be able to feel your way out of everything
(because this consists of reading words from right to left)
saving my best for the oncoming end
time and time again it comes and goes in an endless flow
your breathing shallows just like my expectations
i'll just keep screaming until my throat caves in
do you think you can save it this time?

this is as real as i've felt in a while
(just throw in the towel)
these faulty words fill my ears to the brim
feelings dont mean anything
when you get as deep as this

this abstract moment hangs forever and ever
(like hearts beating faster waiting to explode)
i'll just keep praying for this tension to unravel
from inside i know that this could easily be the end
but i'll keep fighting for her
because she's all that i have left

i guess this is as good as it gets
cuz i dont feel any better
and things should have picked up by now........